We had our 6 week follow up today. It went reasonably well, there was no one in the waiting room when we got there, and only one pregnant woman showed up while we were waiting. Despite that good start I started crying before we even made it to the exam room. The exam was normal, he said that I looked good. The pap smear results should be back next week at the latest, possibly Friday. Last Spring I had an abnormal pap, and had to have a colposcopy which was thankfully normal. The plan was to have pap smears every 6 months, but I was pregnant with Grace so no November pap. I am not sure that I could take any more bad news so please, please universe let me have a normal pap. The good news was that in 1-2 cycles we could actively start to try and get pregnant again, and he said that we did not have to take any precautions against pregnancy in the meantime. That office has some of the best memories of my life, I hate that it is so hard to be there now.
We came home and I was just exhausted. The mail had photos from the hospital which I was not expecting. They were very sweet with Grace in her little outfit from Threads of Love. Then both Mark and I had a mini break down. It was cathartic and needed after all the emotion from today.