I cannot lie, this Christmas is easier than last. Baby Bear is here and alive and wonderful and she keeps me so busy that I am more distracted from the intense missing if Grace. However the saddness creeps up and bubbles over in the quiet times, early in the morning, nap time and late at night. When I should have an almost 2 year old up and talking and wanting to do STUFF not rest like her baby sister. It still boggles my mind that time keeps passing, those few hours with Grace are so imprinted on my mind it feels like they were yesterday.
Dear sweet baby Grace I miss you so much, I wish you were here with us so I could hug you and kiss you and not just love you from afar. I love you with all that I am, all that I have and all I could be. You are my sun and moon and loving you and knowing you make me a better person.