I made chocolate cookies with peanut butter chips the week before Grace died. They were a childhood favorite that I had not had in years and had never made. I was craving them. I had picked out the type of cookie I would make next, oatmeal scotchies. I was on this diet for our Bradley birthing classes, you had to eat 75-100 mg of protein, 4 servings of whole grains, 4 servings of dairy, 2 eggs, 2 servings of green vegetables, 3 healthy fats, 1 regular vegetable, 1 fruit and 1 source of vitamin C daily. I was having troubles getting all of those things every day. The whole grains were hard since they were so filling and I had so many other things to eat. So I decided that I could get my whole grains in cookies. I never had a chance to make them for my baby.
I wonder what kind of cookies would have been her favorite: chocolate chip, orange marmalade, apricot thumbprints, apeas, sugar cookies? I would have made all of those and more for her, we would have made them together.
|Her feet held in our hands. Her feet just like mine.|