Capture Your Grief, Day 17: Due Date/Birthday

I went to work for 11 hours and then went home and cried.  For her 3 month birthday we had her Memorial service at our home.  It was lovely and crazy emotional.  For her 6 month birthday we went to church and made donations in her name to several charities.  Her one year birthday is coming up in February, we won't work that day.  I would like to have a butterfly release at the arboretum.  We will have a cake, it will be chocolate, and we will eat grilled cheese sandwiches.  It was the meal I ate in the hospital after I gave birth to her.  She was in my arms and I was eating all high on endorphins, so that is the meal I will have every Feb 12.