I asked for a book on quilting years ago for Christmas and it sat on my shelf, unread, for the better part of a decade. Until a few weeks ago. I decided to read it. I see other mom's making quilts for their babies, I see babies on quilts in my hypnosis sessions, and one of my favorite gifts for Grace was a handmade quilt in pink and green. So I am going to try and make one myself. I have the book, I ordered equipment on Amazon, I bought fabric. I am ready... I think.
I don't know who this quilt is for. It may be just for me. It may be a representation of hope, that I will have another baby soon to make a quilt for. It may be guilt that I never even thought of making one for Grace. I don't know, but I know that I need to make it, I need to at least try. I am hoping that it will be a meditative practice, that can quiet my mind and relax my soul.
The last few weeks have been so hard. I miss her so much. I actually had ghost kicks last week and they brought back such happy memories that I did not start crying for 5 minutes, but then the feeling of loss flooded my spirit. I suspect that there will be many tears shed while making this quilt and that is okay.
|Fabrics for the quilt experiment|