Tuesday, September 25, 2012

Sometimes you just can't catch a break

So I had an abnormal pap smear in the months before I got pregnant with Grace.  It was the lowest grade abnormal (atypical), but an abnormal none the less.  I had a colposcopy a few weeks later which was completely normal and by OB didn't even feel the need to take a biopsy.  The plan was to have pap smears every 6 months from here on out. Of course then I became pregnant so no pap smear in 6 months.  I had one at my 6 week follow up from losing Grace and it was perfectly normal.  I even had to remind the OB's office that I needed to schedule another exam in 6 months not 12.  Well 6 months have gone by and last week I had my pap smear.  I wasn't even worried about it, since the last one was normal, but the universe has a crappy sense of humor.

It was low grade abnormal, so 1 level worse than the atypical I had previously, there are still 3 more levels of abnormal after this one, but it has hit me like a ton of bricks.  In 3 weeks I go in for another colposcopy, but even if that is normal they will likely biopsy and perform cryosurgery on my cervix since I keep having abnormal smears.  This just sucks, my baby died I should get a pass on all this crap, especially things involving my reproductive organs.  Seriously I have had sex with 3 people in my life, 3 and yet I have this to deal with.

I am sorry if this comes off as a complete pity party, but hey I reserve the right today.  Tomorrow I can be all adult and think about the people who have dealt with worse things than this, but not today.


  1. I am sorry you are going through this. The universe DOES seem to have a crappy sense of humor and you more than deserve a pass. Thinking positive thoughts for you.

  2. ooh I'm sorry. You can have your pity party as much as you want, that sucks! I hope they figure out what is going on. ((hugs))

  3. I dealt with various grades of CIN for years and had several treatments (usually, it's supposed to clear up after first treatment; like 99% of the time my gyno told me - I appear to be very good at falling on the wrong side of statistics!). If my email shows for you when I leave a comment, and you want to chat about it, feel free to email me. I hope everything is cleared up for you ASAP. And you're right: you should get a pass.