So I had an abnormal pap smear in the months before I got pregnant with Grace. It was the lowest grade abnormal (atypical), but an abnormal none the less. I had a colposcopy a few weeks later which was completely normal and by OB didn't even feel the need to take a biopsy. The plan was to have pap smears every 6 months from here on out. Of course then I became pregnant so no pap smear in 6 months. I had one at my 6 week follow up from losing Grace and it was perfectly normal. I even had to remind the OB's office that I needed to schedule another exam in 6 months not 12. Well 6 months have gone by and last week I had my pap smear. I wasn't even worried about it, since the last one was normal, but the universe has a crappy sense of humor.
It was low grade abnormal, so 1 level worse than the atypical I had previously, there are still 3 more levels of abnormal after this one, but it has hit me like a ton of bricks. In 3 weeks I go in for another colposcopy, but even if that is normal they will likely biopsy and perform cryosurgery on my cervix since I keep having abnormal smears. This just sucks, my baby died I should get a pass on all this crap, especially things involving my reproductive organs. Seriously I have had sex with 3 people in my life, 3 and yet I have this to deal with.
I am sorry if this comes off as a complete pity party, but hey I reserve the right today. Tomorrow I can be all adult and think about the people who have dealt with worse things than this, but not today.