The truth is you can read all the parenting books that you want once you have a baby, all that crap gets thrown out the window. Poor Rosabella has been subject to our learning on the job. We finally have the breast feeding somewhat down, she is not taking any formula and is doing well. My nipples are surviving, not perfect, but not bad either. Now she is refusing to nap so she gets super cranky and cries. We watched the video "Happiest Baby on the Block" and have been using those techniques to settle her and get her to sleep and so far so good, but it has been a ton of work. I am tired and so is the DH, but we are happy. I keep waiting for her to grow up a little more so that she is easier to take care of, but I know that I will miss these early days.
Especially the co-sleeping, waking up with her tiny body curled against mine is one of the nicest things ever. We never planned to completely co-sleep, we have a side bassinet for the bed that is now used to store blankets. Now that I think about it we have been co-sleeping with Grace since we got her ashes back. Her Bear sleeps with us every night. The missing her just never changes, just like my love for her, it is always there even when I am happy, even when Rosabella takes every bit of energy I have (plus some), it is there.