I officially entered the third trimester Friday and the anxiety about this baby dying just jumped into the forefront of my world. I do kick counts obsessively. I have started some hypnobabies affirmations trying to deal with the anxiety. I am also just trying to take everything one moment at a time.
As a fun side note, my ankles and feet have started to swell like crazy, of course I am freaking out that I could have pre-eclampsia and that this could be bad for the baby. I see my OB tomorrow and will find out if my blood pressure is out of whack or not. I have ordered some graduated compression socks and stockings to help with the swelling if it turns out to be just the normal pregnancy swelling. I am trying to be proactive about everything, but the fear is there always in the background.
We pray to Grace to help bring Baby Bear to this world safely. I wish so much that I could have brought her home safely too. My baby girls... will I get to keep either? Why couldn't I have both?