Just feeling really low the last few days. This anniversary snuck up on me. God I miss her so much.. tears spill over frequently.
I was meditating yesterday at yoga. I generally use that time to spend with Grace. Yesterday we were at the beach. She was just learning to walk and had on the cutest blue bathing suit and big white sun hat. The wind was blowing and she was laughing and the sun was sparkling on the water. We were so happy in my vision. I wanted so badly for it to be real. For her to be with me. Four months without her, it is like torture.
Dear Amanda,
ReplyDeleteSometimes I forget how close you are to losing Grace. 4 and 5 months out from losing Eva was the most emotionally draining, hard, sad, lonely, desperate time for me so far and I am at almost 10 months out. I'm sorry things are so hard. I wish I could make you a cup of tea.
Love, Em