Sunday, September 28, 2014
It has been too long
My poor neglected blog. I guess after a few years although the grief and the loss and the ache are still there it is hard to find something new to say about it. I am pregnant again, 17 almost 18 weeks. Things were going well, but I started to have terrible anxiety about 10 days ago. My poor DH was in tears this morning because I was freaking out about not being able to feel the baby move. The idea of losing another child is paralyzing, but here I am. I love this new baby so fiercely, but I know that all the love in the world cannot keep him/her alive. I think that I may be needing this space again and hopefully be writing more.